Today was crazy day,my best friend shows up at my moms,i aint seen him in months right..I anwser the door we talking,than comes another guy i grew up,we all talking..The whole time i wasnt me,it was bogus..man i was like a shell of myself today,thinking about my heart,and feeling funky overall,and just not normal thinking..i was the one that was the prankster always joking around..everybody taling about what they been up to,its like i moved from house to house,but the rest i dont share just here,and a few other people..this disease has robbed me of days with my daughter,family and friends..today was just a perfect example of this..im going to go to bed,pray for you,and myself,but im so fustrated in the fact that my life isnt changing..
i have a chemical imbalance i must address that..will i ever be free again??wish i could cry im so down..
outlaw
