Okay today was stepdaughters graduation there well over 200 some people there.Well i knew this going in,and i really dont have social anxiety,just anxiety that makes me scared 24/7..
Well my gurlfriend came in yelling at me,i took a nap before we left we took seperate cars..so i took a shower prayed tryed to cry..I was just having one of them my body is in a knot type of day..really just wanted to sleep it off,i felt bad..
So i got up after they left got in the shower,and than popped a xanax..Than i got in my pickup,played Donovan,i know folk 70's rock but something to relax me..
As i approached the walk way,i swear i looked at the blue sky said a prayer,said this is for my little gurl,and thought how i had you guys behind me..
I never realized how much you guys helped me,People like Texas Crystal,Gina i could go on,and on but most of what i did was for the lil gurl,the rest i said is for my panic surviors..Yall i got me through,all the talks we had,and the prayers you send..THANKS GUYS..
NO MATTER WHAT TOMOROW BRINGS I F"N DID IT TONITE!!!!
lOVE YOU GUYS,
oUtlAW
