As some of you well know, I have a lot of health concerns at all times. WELL, a week ago, I was caring for a resident at the nursing home that I work in. This resident was very ill, and throwing up. It turns out she had MENINGITIS, and since hearing this I have been in absolute PANIC. I have had dull headaches, flushing feelings where my face feels very warm. My back and neck have also hurt a little, but this is normal to some extent with my work. I believe that I am for the most part, creating all of these physical feelings that I am having. This terrifies me more because then I wonder if ill be able to tell the difference and that means that i wont get to the ER in time and ill die or be brain dead or something. Last night was the worst, I coouldn't function, all I could do was panic that I was going to die, and cry. It feels like i'm at my wits ends right now, and there is just this impending doom that each day is my last. Sorry this is long, but it feels good to just get all of this out.
deedles
