Hi, I notice that I don´t have any problems at all when I interact with people with extrovert personalities. But I´m a little tired of this kind of personalities. Because they make friends very easy, I don´t feel they value my friendship as I value them.
So I would like to be abble to interact with other kind of personalities, but other personalities aren´t so easy so approach for me.
I still haven´t discovered the first steps of an interaction with a new person, I can say hello and ask questions to develop a conversation but it´s not real, it is something like mimic or theather that I developed to protect myself from embarrasing and trying to look like a normal person. The exercice on the beach, keeping my head up, helped a lot, because I could put out my real sensation and happiness and desire to comunicate with others.
Today I joinned to a big group running of people. I tryed to comunicate in a genuine way, not teather, but I couln´t do it. I looked around and see everybody comunication each other, and feeling apart, like I wasn´t there. Like I was there just observing, not participating with them and feeling ambarrased. I could do teather, like I trained in the past, but I wish to be abble to comunicate in a genuine way. Because that make´s me feel so happy.
