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mmgsc100,

I can relate to the train wreck, but before it was over, I had to retire from my job, fight them to keep from hospitalizing me, and was in the bed for two years. I spent time there, on the computer and in dr. offices. It seems the worse the depression, the worse my physical health as well.

I think writing is a great idea. In my opinion typing them in e-mail is not a good idea. You might try writing them in a word processing program and filing them in a folder labeled (journal). It would be less tempting to send something then. I think writing letters to people (though I wouldn't mail mine either) is therapeutic. I think you should keep writing them but in a safer place.

I'm sorry to hear that your family doesn't want to listen to you. Have you got a therapist or counselor that you see? I think you mentioned that you did but that you pay them. As a former counselor, we don't get into the business to get paid to listen, we are genuinely concerned about people and the difference we can make in their life. I think that maybe it is a good thing to listen to what the therapist/counselor says. Take some of the information from here that you are working on and make it the topic of the conversation. It will help you stay focused on one issue at a time.

It seems you are overwhelmed right now. If you think you are writing good-bye letters you need to let your therapist know this. This is very important. I'll let the moderators address that more.

I hope you keep coming here and writing to us. Start working the sessions, they really do help. They are time consuming at first (or were for me) and I had to really think about them. If you do them and take the time to do them as they suggest, I think you'll find things become easier.

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Hello mmgsc100,

I know exactly where you are at. Please post often here. We are always here to listen andinterested in your thoughts. I don't have much advice for you. but I did want to let you know I was listening and that I get what you are going thrugh. I also wanted to let you know it can get better. It is getting better for me everyday! So hang in there! This too shall pass!

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Have you ever felt like you could see the train wreck of your life happening, but could not do anything to stop it? That's where I am, and I'm just too tired to really care anymore.

My head fills with 'chatter' when I am alone, and so I write things. I wrote a loooong letter to my boss yesterday, but had the strength to not hit 'send' (yet). My family does their best to not let me be alone because that is when the chatter overwhelms me. I start remembering things that happened in the past and chewing it over and over, but mostly I write letters in my head, like a one-way conversation. (no, I don't hear anybody answering me

). I'm here doing this now since I get up early and nobody else does, so weekend mornings I spend alone. Wheat bothers me a lot is that - to people who tried to be my friends - I seem to be 'writing' apologies and goodbyes. I'm just shutting down. I talk to fewer and fewer real people - emails and posts are one way. We have an internal company IM at work, and I used to get a lot of support from the contact, but my boss keeps me on a very short leash and several times has asked (or just looked) to see who I was talking to. I don't go online much anymore, which not only helped me socially but was also a convenience in my job. My company emails are auto-copied to both my supervisor and my boss - I don't know what they think of me (not much, it seems). Nobody else has to auto-copy, just me.

I go to bed earlier each night, and I use my iPod so the chatter does not start. If it does, I get up again and either try to watch TV, or take a pill (I hate pills) or sometimes my husband will rub my back until I fall asleep, as long as I don't try and talk. Nobody in my family wants to listen anymore, it never stops so I don't blame them.

I'm just so tired of all of this.

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