Hi there everyone, I have just taken the test and found out I have chronic depressive symptoms. Now I know that I have been depressed for years, but I also know what causes it. I have been taking drugs for about 20-25 years, but for the last 5 have only been on a methadone maintanence dose which is not high. I am not what people typicaly think of as an addict, I have a steady job that I've been at for 18years and do not go out for street drugs. I am also in a relationship with someone and we have two gorgeous kids, a girl of 6 and a boy of 10, whome I love with all my heart. The trouble thats just bought this to a head is I have just found out that my partner is having an affair with someone else. I cant blame her for this as we have not functioned as a family or a couple in a long time. What has hit me so hard is that after meeting only twice they jumped staight into bed together. Also I cant realy blame her for that as i have not shown her any affection for about 6 years and we have not talked to each other either. Why it has hit me so hard is that I still love her like mad. After a little talk last night she said that she stopped loving me 3years ago, but the kick for me is that she never bothered trying to talk to me about it
